Sometimes nothing makes sense, why am I here, who do I make a difference to, will my kids love me? I wonder if I am a good mom or if I can ever fix this. I’ve made major mistakes, the one thing I have ever known or the only thing that ever made sense to me was Faith and Arabella. My only wish is to be able to have Faith and Arabella grow up with Jesus in their hearts. To know that no matter what happens that mommy will always love both of you the same forever.
Faith honey, Mommy wants you to know I have never forgot or gave up on you. I am truly sorry I have missed so many days, nights and all the things you have gone through. I wish I could be there for everything you go through to dry all your tears. Mommy wants you to know I am always with you in your heart. I think of you every day all day. You are my beautiful baby girl always and I hope you still love me and know I will never go any where and I will never give up I promise.
Arabella sweetie Mommy wants you to know, I will never put you in danger. I am so sorry I did drugs while I was taking care of you. I was selfish and you did not deserve that. I promise you I will never do that again. I hope you can forgive me. I will always love you and I hope I get a chance to prove my love to you. Your so special just like your sister Faith. I will do everything to make sure no matter if your with me or not, your both safe.
Jessica